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Sin City

As I head to Las Vegas I’ m forcefully reminded of my ideal of thriving without. One of the withoutisms I’ve struggled to address is how to thrive without escape mechanisms. How do you live in the world of today without some deadening of the senses? I quickly move from a stance of being wholly present: live today, not yesterday or tomorrow. Deal with the pain, emotionally and physically. Don’t cave to narcotics, liquor, ibuprofen, potato chips. Meditate. Which, if you’ve tried it, 5 minutes seems an eternity. How do you clear your mind of the ever-looping play of thoughts, action items, to do lists?

The next moment, hour, day I’ve moved on to an inner dialogue of: “why the hell not?” I enjoy a glass (or bottle) of wine. I enjoy the warming calm of a Xanax after a trying day. And who doesn’t love a Vicodin or two when your body hurts (or it happens to be a Friday, or Tuesday night).

I work hard. I play hard. I’ve EARNED my body as it is today, my skill, my career, my day-to-day life. I’m grateful for what I have, both physically and emotionally. Does that mean I’ve also earned the right to escape all of it when it gets hard? For today, as the plane banks left for a stunning landing in Las Vegas, I’m going with yes.